Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Chills...

My weakness after a man tht can dance is one that can sing..."sigh...

I had ONE boyfriend in my life that could sing truth be told that's how he got me (I was young dont judge me dammit...)

Sang to me all the time, no matter where , no matter when...and singing has been the one talent i envy and wish I had...

I was floating around youtube and found this dude,and when I tell u i smiled through both vids...(and not only cuz these are 2 of my fav songs...)

Enjoy him...i def did.










May have to put these on my ipod...for a rainy day ;-)

Peace.

Overload...

**Disclaimer*

This particular post is about to me hella jumbled...so feel free to skip reading it..I'm processing right now and best way to do it is to blog it out sometimes...It may not make much sense to anyone but me**

You ever hold so much in that the idea of letting it out scares you? I'm in that spot right now...

So many emotions, it's hard to get a handle on em all...travel, business, love, life, break-ups, friendships, jealousy, frustration, insecurity. I'm juggling more and more every day just waiting to see what drops first...

Every time I feel myself about to snap, about to cry, about to break...I suck it back up fast (I've become quite good at it...) End's with a headache...but that's life right?

*deep breath*...

Boy loves girl, girl likes boy, boy is scared, girl grows impatient, girl leaves boy, boy still loves her, girl gets him back...or maybe she never did. Lovers, friends, back to lovers, back to friends, now in limbo...and my head hurts. Everything for a reason, but what is ever the reason for heartache, is karma really that big a bitch? ...Was i?...They say lets the chips fall where they may, they say if u let someone go yadda yadda yadda...Screw that, I want the chips to fall in my favor, I don't want to lose what should've been mine to start with...mad tense, need a drink, and to disappear, new york again in a month , l.a after that...need a beach in my life...i honestly want to cry, dunno if I'll stop if i start seriously...so no tears for me. Chest tight, eyes burning, gonna try to make sangria for the first time later, am I no longer what he wants? or maybe he no longer trusts me with his heart...cant fault anyone for that but me. Lookin in the mirror is gonna HURT...merry-go-round of emotions ...someone broke the switch and now I can't get off...ever love someone so much that u realize if you can't have them in your life the way u need to...smh...can't ever see him with anyone else so maybe we can't be friends...dammit I'm selfish. black people don't see shrinks right. and now my throats tightening up. 6 can't get here fast enough...need my "upper room" to sit and disappear....and drink. But i get more emo when I drink and I'm back on the blasted merry-go-round except now its spinning faster...No one knows the real me seriously...that's some sad shit. They all love my smile, all love my eyes, all say I'm so pretty, so sweet, soooo...what? Can't remember the last time i cried in front of someone...gotta stay positive, gotta stay happy, roller coaster built to crash it seems, I cry when no ones watching and I laugh when everyone can see...beautiful disaster, all poetic dribble for what? Me? nah im not that poetic...but i am tired. Tired of feeling..tired of tired, tired of wanting those who don't want me and being wanted by those i don't want...always happens that way doesn't it? My empty hotel room next month is gonna be scary...my eyes are burning less, so rambling DOES help, lol. It's better to have loved and lost...bullshit. Why would i want to lose my love...? Tired of cliche's and hallmark card fixes...I need a real answer...why does it hurt and when will it stop, i should probably fall back on him, but giving up isn't like me. Then again whats "like me" hasn't worked in 7 years or whatever its been. That's too long to bounce back and forth...looking forward to a loooooooooooong walk in NY at night, maybe it'll start to come together. I"d like to walk with him, talk with him, just look at him, or be near him, fall asleep with him, laugh with him, listen to his heart beat, look at him lookin at me.... but for what? Un-requited love is a bitch too..i'm setting myself up...for lookin like a fool. My faith in marriages is dwindling, random, but I've seen 2 good friends divorced both b4 30. Only 1 solid still married couple comes to mind and they aren't even MY parents...smh. and there goes the pain again. Butterfly effect thoughts...If i went back and re-did certain parts what would the outcome be? Where would I be? Where would he be? We STILL may not have been together so who's to say? But we could've been...would've could've should've, hind sight is sure as HELL 20-20...So whats the remedy when you can see things clearer LATER? Can't fix it, cant get it back, cant make sense of it..stinging... I think he'd like the "A", already know i love NYC...matters none tho.
and the headaches back...3 hours and counting to go and home to the "upper room" I feel like a fool though, a MAJOR fool...for him. and I'd be a fool for him 30 times over if it meant he'd feel the same way or if it'd take the stinging away... or if I could just get him back,

Deuces.

Double or Nothing...

Earth shaking when you realize you've lost your chance huh? Life lesson's learned I guess...but it stings no less...

Double or Nothing...





Gotta love happy endings...Even when they aren't your own...(just wish it didn't sting so bad...)

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Wanna Ride...




GotDammit Ciara! I'm NOT mad at ALL...I mean hear me when i say at AAAAAAAAAAAAALLLLLL!!!! If this aint some all new summertime/pornish/gymflow motivation i dunno what is...

I'm bout to play it again, makes me want to mount something...(or someone...*drops gauntlet* YUP ! )

Deuces!

Monday, April 19, 2010

Forever Young....

This was mad cute to me...I'm liking the Bey & Jay coupledom...this mad me smile though...




Plus I'm feeling the song...(plus It makes me smile when she kinda sings TO him...)

If I could sing like her...I'm be serenading my man upon request...lol

Soooo cute..."sigh.


Deuces.

Friday, April 16, 2010

Good Morning Heartache...




Just love the beauty of her voice...forgive me but I may prefer this version to Miss Holiday (although i adore her...)

So beautiful...


Peace
You ever get so full of emotion, so full of living,so full of what you're, feeling, seeing, hearing, you want to cry ...

It's almost overwhelming to be able to FEEL like that, it's a blessing and a curse for me....

But today I'm definitely feeling the blessing end of it...reminds me that no matter what my hearts still beating,I'm still alive, still feeling...

Might not make sense...but maybe it's not supposed to...



The wind...

You ever stand still and just listen to the wind or the noise going on around you? I LOVE the elements, (someone just recently pointed that out to me) thunderstorms, breezy summer evenings,
sitting and watching the water...



But I think the wind is my favorite. I'm sitting here typing this with my windows open as it blows through my bedroom feeling calm. Calm enough to think,and blog, about whatever I got goin on in my head right now. I'm recently doing more moving around, (back to NYC at the end of May,and the to L.A at the end of June) in between all that working this whole career thing out...plus tryin my damnedest to get this fitness thing finally off and running..."sigh

But I'm starting to ramble..

My point is in the midst of all that movement, all that noise...all that wind. You need some "stillness" Everyone has that person that's that...constant in their life. That centering point, that calm.

So I guess this post will be for that person...That listens to me when I'm sure I make no sense, that knows how (even when I dont know how) to calm me...That center when everything around me is moving....

Theres a reason for every person that comes into your life, but even more reason for those that make their way into your heart, and stay there.

There's years of history, infinite trust, and unspoken understanding,respect and of course love...For that alone I consider myself lucky...even blessed.Friends (for me) are few and far between,and after all is said and done time hasn't shifted my "calm"...

My own personal security guard,super-hero, and so much more....and I'm sure he's going to read this.... ; -)

There are never enough "thank you"'s , never enough "I love you's" , and I'm glad I'm wise enough to recognize what I have...

I love the wind, but I need the balance,the quiet when I feel a lil lost....and I've got that.

My stillness....





Peace...

Friday, April 9, 2010

Really tho?! REALLY?!

Now lemmie open up by sayin I neither love nor hate Nicki Minaj, I can live with her or without her...

What i DO hate is this retarded "Barbie" trend she's started thats got all these following ass lil girls, ( and in far too many cases grown-ass women....and sadly some grown men too) Trying to look like her.

Ya'll are not understanding this girl is an ENTERTAINER, she's a half a facial expression from being a full blown cartoon character....

But to each his own or whatever...

But shyt like this is going toooo far...
I'm sorry but NO MA'AM!











"sigh...what went wrong with ya'll...Nicki tatted forever...FOR-EV-R (sandlot voice) on ur body...is it really I mean REALLY that deep!?

I just cant.

Deuces.

Above the rim...

Ok so this is gonna be short, but after an earlier convo with a..."ahem..."friend" I have to ask...
Are rim-jobs the thing to do now?

*A "rim job" is a slang term for analingus. That means oral stimulation of the anus.*

We're they always and i missed the memo?

And to clarify I'm not fond of the idea too much on either end, be it giving or receiving, but I digress...

This "friend" stated that he (yes I said HE which is what makes me raise an eyebrow...) prefers, and on occasion actually REQUESTS these (and has apparently been obliged by more than a few)

Now my dilemma with this if I may be blunt...We're talkin about ur ASS here...I'm not putting my lips, tongue, or any appendage of mine near any grown man's asshole. And as a man, why are u requesting any anal...."stimulation"








I mean I'm not a man, and I really don't know if this is some secret passed around male circles that no one talks about. Maybe I was let in on a secret that I shouldn't have been...I dunno...

So now I'm askin, ladies are WE doing this and not speakin on it? I for one refuse...I'm sorry but no...( plus ol' boy is gettin the mean side-eye from me right now) And don't worry I have NOOOOOOOOOOOO desire for u to have ur tongue in my ass, I'm good. But inquiring minds need to know...

Am I out of the loop? ( not that I care cuz I'm still not doin it...no judgement tho, i pinky swear)

Are guys really that into anal play now?

Help me out here people...

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

Taming the Miranda...

Now I'm pro-waxing..lets just get that out there. But I had this convo with a friend at work...and I don't think it's fair that men want us to look like toddlers from the waist down, while we gotta fight through the amazon rainforest's...(I'm referring to pubic hair for the kids wearing helmets)

Now as far as man-scaping, I'm all for it..I'm not saying u gotta be as smooth as me...but can I get u to trim it? For one, hair traps odor, for two it just gets in the way truthfully, plus its kinda scratchy...

I mean the level of up-keep we gotta go thorough for ya'll is really no joke. So can we get a lil in return?

Psssssst...Not only is it good hygiene it makes ur package look bigger , true story ;-)


I know this is mad random, but I'm curious what the rest of you think....Guys to man-scape or not to man-scape...

I say just gauge yours against ours...If what you see when you look down is more than what you'd be comfortable with seeing on us, I say it's too much...I think that's only fair.

Besides, it's about to be summer...all that extra hair CANT feel good...just sayin...

So ladies cast your votes, but men cast yours too, fully waxed, landing strip, power muff, what are your preferences...

Deauces!!

Time time for some time for some action...

Disclaimer: I'm not a total prev, I promise. (Thats about all imma say...lol)

Since I've posted (more than once) about the joys of head...It just occured to me that I havent helped the ladies out!! Madnesss!!!

So here goes...Gentlemen...whip out ur pen an paper...

Eat Pussy Like a Pro

Top 5 Tips | Tips from Women | Tips from Men

What woman doesn’t love to be expertly eaten out? Oral sex done right can take your partner to new heights of pleasure, but done wrong it can be an ordeal for both of you. Munching rug should be no great mystery. These tips will introduce you to some of the basics of cunnilingus and help you go down like a pro. Don’t forget to come up for air!

Sex Toys

1. What’s that smell?

While some folks prefer their poontang to be on the gamey side, for many people, fear of a funky odor or taste is the chief barrier to going down on a woman. All women do have a distinctive scent and flavor, and for some would-be cunning linguists, these may be an acquired taste. However, if your partner is clean and in good health, her taste and smell should not be unpleasant or overwhelming. If you have concerns about her hygiene, the most tactful approach is to suggest a shared shower or bath before sex. If after a good soaping, her pussy still smells like something crawled up it and died, or she has unusual discharge, she probably has an infection and should see a doctor.


2. Work your way up.

Take your time when you start to eat pussy. Get her warmed up with some basic foreplay—kissing, fondling, etc. It’s better to go down on a wet pussy than a dry one. Once she’s aroused, make your descent. Try kissing and tonguing her ankle or the sole of her foot. Then kiss and lick your way slowly up the inside of her leg (the back of the knee is a good erogenous zone, too). Tease her a bit more by kissing and tonguing her inner thighs. Blow some air lightly over her cooter. She’ll go nuts.


3. Get acquainted.

Once your face is up in her crotch, don’t dive straight for her panic button. Explore the whole area with your mouth. Gently probe with your tongue and locate her vagina and clit. Suck on her labia. Get your whole face messy.


4. Get busy.

Now you want to go to work on her clit. The key is to use your tongue and lips to suck and massage it gently. Don’t poke at it or press too hard. Go in circles, go up and down, flick back and forth lightly. There is no real “right” way to go down on a woman; just make it up as you go along and pay attention to what works. Vary your speed and pressure and see what she responds to. When you hit the right groove, you’ll probably know it because she’ll grab the back of your head and clamp her thighs around your ears like a vice. But to be on the safe side, ask her beforehand to let you know what she likes. Once you hit her hot spot, there’s no need to rush; just keep her engine revving. Feel free to explore some other techniques or positionsbefore you take her over the top.


5. The ABCs.

This is perhaps the most common tip when you eat pussy: use your tongue to trace the letters of the alphabet on her clit. Some people swear by it. Personally, I don’t recommend it. I don’t think it’s a good technique. Also, it’s too much of a distraction, and if she catches you humming the Alphabet Song under your breath, you’re busted. You should be paying attention to her, not what comes after Q.


6. Use your hands.

You can create some wild sensations for her by stimulating her clit with both your fingers and your tongue simultaneously. Also, most women enjoy a finger or two in their cunt while being eaten out. Insert your fingers with your palm up, crook them slightly, and stroke toward you in a “come hither” motion to hit her G-spot. A finger up the ass will also drive her over the edge if she’s into anal play. (As always, to avoid infection, if you put something in her ass, make sure you don’t put it in her pussy afterward.)


7. Stick out your tongue.

You can also use your tongue to penetrate her—just make it rigid and plunge in. You can then tongue-fuck her by moving your tongue in and out, or by keeping it stationary and bobbing your whole head. For bonus points, try stimulating her clit with your nose while your tongue is inside her.


8. Let her ride.

Put a pillow or two under your neck and let her sit on your face. This gives you a nice view of her tits and gives her a degree of control over pressure and position. Let her grind her juices all over your mug.




Done and Done... :-)

Hot-n-Bothered...


So um er ah....Yeah it's Spring according to the calendar, but feelin like summer pretty much...And for some reason this kind of weather makes me....um....how shall i say...





Like this....(NSFW)




I'm not afraid to say I can be a bit of an exhibitionist, (that may not be the right word...)but when it gets warm public places suddenly become more...interesting. Or anywhere that isnt just the bed really...


I mean ladies you can act like the idea of a warm summer night, a park bench, a dress (and not much under it) and a ready and willing partner don't cross your mind during the warmer months...Maybe it's just me...(I'm fine with that ...PRUDES!!) Lol...

But tonight I'm tryin to blog is out so I dont end up here...(NSFW)

"le'sigh...Whats a girl to do.

As women we're emotional creatures...I'm very much a romantic. Hold my hand, stroke my hair, kiss my neck, I LOVE all that mush...

...But sometimes...







Sometimes I need to be pinned to a wall...and So yeah...sorry if its too graphic( not really)
And sorry if it's a bit pic heavy...but frustrating summer nights will do that to ya...

Deuces!!

Friday, April 2, 2010

Say Aaahh...

What better way to say "good morning", Than to give some morning head... :-)







I follow alot of blogs and I found this one www.blogxilla.com (Check it out...pure hilarity)

I'm re-posting this one cuz frankly I loved it...lol.




27 Logical Reasons you Should Preform Oral Sex in the Morning.


More oral sex should take place in the morning. In a perfect world each day would start off with oral sex because after head, everything else is less important. Ladies imagine if instead of your alarm clock, your man woke you up to a tongue spanking. You won’t have to roll over and smack your hand against the snooze button, but instead you can grab the back of your guys head and press your lady parts against his mouth. Fellas imagine waking up to slurps and a wet crotch instead of that annoying buzzing! Wouldn’t that be great. So to all the couples out there and people who plan on waking up next to someone in the near future here is a list of reasons and things to say in order to get more oral sex in the morning.

  • Vagina taste better after an evening marinating in last nights juices.
  • Morning wood needs to be polished.
  • After having an orgasm in someone’s mouth, your boss complaining doesn’t matter as much. You can just think, ‘hey asshole you obviously didn’t have what I had this morning so nanny nanny poo poo.’ Only don’t say that outloud becase you will lose your job.
  • Semen helps kill gingivitis.
  • You like having a smile on your face in the morning.
  • While your deep in dream mode, your significant other becomes, Nicki Minaj, Trey Songz, or whoever it is you dream about and for a few brief moment it’s them giving you head and it seems oh so real.
  • When you realize it’s the person you had sex with the night before it’s really not that bad of a constellation prize.
  • Your dog shouldn’t be the only living thing in the house getting it’s crotch licked each morning.
  • Wouldn’t we all like to be breakfast for once?
  • After morning head, we can have morning sex.
  • She can’t get pregnant if she takes it in her mouth.
  • Why not wake up doing something you actually like doing?
  • Because oral sex is better than oatmeal and just as clumpy
  • It won’t be the first time she had something white and gooey in her mouth before noon.
  • Vagina is the only thing that actually taste better than bacon.
  • He can walk around smelling her on his upper lip all day long.
  • I’m sure that is how Adam and Eve woke up before they ate the apple.
  • Because we can
  • Because it’s great.
  • Because no matter how hard you try you really can’t think of a reason not to do it.
  • A logical reason.
  • It’s worth being late…
  • If you tell your boss why you were late and send them a link to this blog you won’t get written up.
  • Semen helps your skin glow.
  • Vagina juice in the morning has the same amount of vitiman c as orange juice.
  • Would you really rather have a day without oral sex in the morning?
  • Because practice makes perfect.

Truth and Comedy...gotta love it!!

Deuces!!


**DEAD**

Ok so it has to have happened to EVERY female at least once. You meet a dude u like, you finally sleep over...and BAM u have to take a crap...What do u do?

(No seriously i wanna hear some funny boo-boo stories)

But this vid had me dyyyyyyyyyin...I almost felt bad for her...lol