Thursday, January 26, 2012

Burns...

 There is nothing more heart wrenching...than someone pouring their heart out to you, professing their love for you, and almost begging you to be with them...when you just don't feel the same way....The longing and want present in their words is so...real, and so vulnerable. Forcing yourself to feel the same is wrong...yet you almost want to to ease their pain a little...

 

Love is a hell of a drug...it can make you feel higher than high and lower than low all at once. I'm always SO careful, or at least I try to be with the emotions of others...sometimes so careful I can neglect my own. How do you respond to such intense raw emotion...? I can't break another heart, Ive broken a few and it's an awful feeling, one I still carry with me. But I can't, never have been the type to give in to what you want just to spare your feelings...

 

Do you say I'm sorry you love me so much? What do you say....thank you? I wish I knew what I did to make him feel so deeply....so I could undo it, but how do I undo being myself...I hurt for him, and I wish he didn't want me. Funny cause I never thought I'd ever say those words...but it's true. After not being wanted back myself before....I know how it feels. But it echoes in my head...I wish he didn't want me...

I know how it burns...but my heart is elsewhere....Funny how that works sometimes...

 

 

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