So...

Today...I got called a "Goddess"...

Felt kinda good.

Ok that's all

Deuces.

Hell Yeah!

OK I'm not a size 16 nor am I 5"3 or anything like that, lol But shyt I FELT this one! So Here goes...




I MIIIIISS Def Poetry!!

Loves it!

Deuces!

L-O-V-E...this kind of love...

THIS....is Love...The kind of "love" I LOVE...

I got it off one of my followers blogs...(PrincessBMarie, thanks girlie!!)

And I HAD to post...





Peace...

Thinkin...

You ever feel like you have to take a couple steps back in order to ultimately move forward?

I mean...in theory it may not make sense...but I see it as...

To jump the highest hurdle u need a running start right...if you don't take off at enough speed, you wont clear that hurdle. So sometimes u need to take a few steps back...get a running start and do it again...

I dunno...I'm just thinking...I might need to take a few steps back when it comes to a few things & people...

Get a good running start...and jump clear over them...

Peace.

Food for Thought...

Stuff just pops into my head sometimes...Random thoughts, or random questions...

So since this is my blog...what better place...?

Anyway...Not to be all depressing or anything...but seriously...

If you died today...What would you be able to say you've done?

I asked myself that question and didn't like the answer...so needless to say its time for some changes.

They ain't lying when they say life's too short...

Besides..if I wont live mine to the fullest who else will?

I got places to travel to ...
Things to see...
People to meet...
Money to spend...
Loves to lose...lol...(and then to love again)

SO MUCH!!! It's an exciting thought...then a scarey one all at once...

the wheels are now turning faster than ever, and the juices are flowing....



Deuces!

Yo!

Todd from "Blush" died?! OMG! I'm like stunned! I'm a makeup artist ( for those of u that didn't know) So the first reality show about MUA's i was all over it. Todd was my fav from like the very start (Nolan was my 2nd) So when it came down the the finale that i JUST finished watching...I just KNEW it was gonna be one of them...(I wasn't really rooting for Maxi..)

So Nolan wins...( he def deserved it..) and at the end...it says "In Memory of Todd Homme" 1986-2008..

I had to google it...

And he apparently died just this past Saturday with like NO diagnosis for why.

No drugs, no alcohol, nothing...he was healthy...and only 23. He just went to sleep and didn't wake up...

That's crazy to me...and even kinda scarey

Not to get all deep, but this is another one of those things that reminds you life really is just a vapor...

His mom said he just went to sleep that afternoon...and never woke up.

"sigh.

So to a fellow MUA...

R.I.P Todd Homme...My Fav MUA from Blush..



Peace...

Moment of Flyness...

Yes...another one,...Featuring the newly more fabulous Miss Keys...

DOPPPPPPE ass makeup...and SICK hoops...(By Her Dopeness , Miss Melody Eshani)




I need these...

Peace...

A case of the X...

So yeah everyones got one... A "HIM"...
That no matter HOW much you're done with...

can still call u up after a long as day and months of not talking. And get into a heated debate with over who's fault it was that things ended the way they did...(Three years later...) And the emotions that coincided with that point in time can still be dragged back up.

"sigh...*slaps forehead"

I was peachy til the blasted phone rang
and i had to do a double take at the freakin number...

Havent heard that voice (or thought about hearing it...) in forever. But after 5 minutes of cordial convo...it heats up!

and fast...

Next thing i know we're talking over eachother and yelling and its no ones fault all over again.... Then (after and hour of this bullshit) the convo ends...peacefully enough...with a truce...(for now) And an "i'll hit u up tomorrow" which may or may not happen...

He and I...(we'll just call him "G") have been at this since i was 21...and he was 24...

We we're kids...now we're both PAST grown and still gettin under eachothers skin like it was day 1...with no end in site.

900 miles ( at the moment) seperate us...yet all it takes is an hour long phone convo to bring it all crashing back... What is it?...I KNOW im not the only one with a "HIM". If you say i am ...u bitches are LYING!

And even though I'd love to stay mad and say eff him...human nature wont let me remember the bad...without also reminding me of the good...( there was alot of both ) It's...thought provoking at the very least...the "what if's" , the "should i's" the "remember when's" that make me laugh, smile to myself, get mad as all hell and hate him, or make me cry cuz i wish i had some of it back...

These are the times i hate being a girl...we're more emotion driven by nature...Guys seem to have that "off switch" and they can flick that shyt at the speed of light... Or maybe thats just how they "play hard" to us...

Lol, I like to think dudes go home and cry in their pillows the way we do...lol (i know that shyts a stretch) But yeah..tonight was my latest encounter with "HIM" and now im up at 1:30 am, still all hype, still thinking, now typing, and torn between blocking him out and wishing i could go back to "back then" knowing what i know now about me, him...life...everything.

As much as i can beat myself over the head wondering...WHY do i even answer the damn phone.. The follow-up question/comment is ..."Well shyt...why's he still CALLING? It's never ending...and i truly believe some people will end up in your life in some way shape or form...forever...I think he's one of those... Wether thats good or bad..i dont know...But it just is...

I'm not DAFT (yeah i said "Daft" screw u...read a book) enough to think we'll end up back together all peachy and shyt...But there's definately SOMETHING...

What to call it , i have no clue...but its something...
The old addage..."everything happens for a reason" i guess it's true... So we'll see...but heavy is th mind of "ME" right now...all cuz of "HIM"


Peace...

More....Shyt I want..

Yeah my list grows daily...I can't help it. I think shopping is just ingrained in some of us. I literally...don't know what I'd do if I couldn't get fresh regularly...I mean...My brain just doesn't compute NOT wanting to shop. I mean the most I can fathom is not going to the actual STORE to shop...and if i can't or don't feel like doing that...then online shopping it is...

I got all my sites bookmarked, and got wish lists on all of them too...

So onto my newest "Shyt I want" list...
























OK that's all for now cuz I'm being lazy...Anyone needing my sizes just ask...lol

Dammit the day I become rich its a wrap...Can we say walk-in-closet?

Buahahahaaa!!

Toodles!

Moment of Flyness...

Ok anyone that knows me , know's I'm a fan of all things dope. Be it fashion, music, etc etc...
And I'm secure enough in myself to give ALL credit where its due...

I came across this image of Alicia when I was looking for the one in the previous blog...She looks freakin FAB!

Alicia's been in the gym dammit! I need her trainer!!

She killed this dress, and the shoes are sick...(Yeah I'm sweating her a lil right now...so what?!)









Dammit...You better WORK Miss Keys!!

Peace!

The skinny ...on skinnies...

Once again...I know skinnies aint new...shut the eff up...

I'm in constant debate with my boss a fellow chick with hips and booty...on the topic of skinny jeans...

No I'm not tall, (5ft 5in) nor am I super thick...(I holding my own from the waist down though..)

But We've been in this tug of war over skinny jeans being better on slimmer chicks, or if the curvier variety of women can pull this off too...

My opinion is you NEED a lil curve in the skinnies...otherwise what the hell's the point?

I mean be for real...which looks better...


Beyonce in some skinnies, or Ashley Olsen in some skinnies...?

Kim Kardashian in skinnies, or Katie Holmes...





vs...



You decide...but I'm partial to some hips with the skinnies...thats just me...

Over and out!

Yikes!

Ok so I know I'm not the only one that saw these in Beyonce's "Green Light" video off her B-Day album. (Yeah I'm late so...?)


Now these shyts look painful ass hell, and on top of that damn near IMPOSSIBLE to walk in....(but I still wanna try, lol)

But then i found this footage...and I guess once u get the hang on them...its not quite so impossible...






She actually makes it look EASY...as odd lookin as they are...I'm intrigued...I dont know where you'd go in these even if you could walk easily in them. It's not like I could do a lounge with these, or even a dinner date or some other "sit-down" type event...But none the less...they've caught my eye...




Deuces...

Hungry...

Drive, Hunger, Success...whatever you want to call it. Hunger is what drives you. And today..(on my day off) I was watching True Life on MTV. This one was about being competitive...


Anyway one of then girls was a dancer...and she injured her elbow during rehearsal....In a nutshell without recreating her whole story...she danced anyway KILLED the performance...and WON...then broke down in tears the minute she got off stage because her elbow hadn't healed yet...she KNEW this prior to the performance...but hunger, and drive will make u go HARD for what you want.

When that went off I was like OMG...if this girl isn't DRIVEN I don't know who is...

So then I thought about my sis-in-law (youtube Saint Brandee Superstar) She's a dancer (for Fergie) and has been all over the world twice touring, and doing what she loves. This girl moved from the "A" out to L.A on her own and WORKED until she made it...

Once again there's that drive...that hunger...

So on Sunday Bishop spoke about the power being in your hands...He touched on the power to make money and basically to SUCCEED being right in your hands...you either choose to activate that power or you don't.

No I've been prophesied over more than one time about my talents...and It always comes down to my hands being blessed..(and as you know or don't know I'm a makeup artist)
So hearing that my hands are blessed ( for the 3rd time) and then hearing what Bishop was saying this past Sunday...and THEN watching True Life today has my mind going a mile a minute.

Complacency will kill drive every time...and I think for a little while I had gotten complacent, and I had let myself get distracted...with my heart, with the world, with the past...

"sigh...such a waste.

But fortunately...That was VERY short lived, and I was able to REALIZE that.

The phrase "Go hard or go home" is sooooo played...soooo over used,...but it's so damn true I can't stop referencing it.

If you don't get hard for what you love...why bother? Just go home...

Well shyt i refuse to go home...so go hard it shall be...

I'm talented, i already know this...and If i don't believe in myself who will?

I'm destined for greatness, I just have that feeling...But no one can make the wheels start turning or the doors start opening but me.

Many doors will close before the right one opens...

So now-a-days when I pray , I pray for patience, focus, and drive....

I got traveling to do, people to me, and success to attain...

If you're not helping then at this point get out of my way...

So today' my prayer is...


"GOD don't let me feel arrogant when i succeed & don't let me feel hopeless when i fail.
but remind me always that failure proceeds success.



Peace...

I love his big ego...

This song sooooo makes me think so someone..."sigh.
Loves it...

Hey baby how you doing?

You know Im gonna cut right to the chase

Some women were made

But me, myself

I like to think I was created

For a special purpose

You know, whats more special than you, you feel me?

Its on, baby lets get lost

You dont need to call into work, cuz youre the boss

For real want you to show me how you feel

I consider myself lucky thats a big deal

Why, well, you got the key to my heart

But you aint gonna need it

Id rather you open up my body

And show me secrets

You didnt know was inside,

No need for me to lie

Its too big
Its too wide
Its too strong
It wont fit
Its too much
Its too tough
He talks like this
Cuz he can back it up
He got a big ego
Such a huge ego
I love his big ego
Its too much
He walks like this
Cuz he can back it up

Usually Im humble

Right now I dont choose

You can leave with me

Or you could have the blues

Some call it arrogant

I call it confidant

You decide when you find

On what Im working with

Damn I know, Im killing you with them legs

Better yet them thighs

Matter a fact its my smile

Or maybe my eyes

Boy you a site to see

Kind of something like me


Its too big
Its too wide
Its too strong
It wont fit
Its too much
Its too tough
I talk like this
Cuz I can back it up
I got a big ego
Such a huge ego
But he love my big ego
Its too much
I walk like this
Cuz I can back it up
I, I walk like this
Cuz I can back it up
I, I talk like this
Cuz I can back it up
I, I can back it up
I can back it up
I walk like this
Cuz I can back it up

Its too big
Its too wide
Its too strong
It wont fit
Its too much
Its too tough
He talks like this
Cuz he can back it up
He got a big ego
Such a huge ego
I love his big ego
Its too much
He walks like this
Cuz he can back it up

Ego so big

You must admit

I got every reason to feel like Im that bitch

Ego so strong, if you aint know

I dont need no beat, I can sing it with piano....

~Beyonce "EGO"~



THATS sooooooooooo my SHYT right now.....

Peace...

Go back in time...

Omg...I used to LOOOOVE this song/video. I'm not the biggest Mariah fan...shes a lil nutty. But this song was so dope to me and the video made me wish i was there...So here goes...enjoy!

Ladies and Gentlemen!!

My laptop is HERE!!!!! OMG, I'm blogging right now out the sheer excitement of being able to dom it from the comfort of my bed...*ELATION*

Aside from coming home to a brand new early christmas gift laptop...my day sucked musty swamp balls. I was at work today from 9:30 AM to 10pm. Totally and UTTERLY ridiculous....smh.

I SOOOOO need a career change...ok wait scratch that...not career...ENVIROMENT. I LOVE what I do, just not WHERE I'm doing it at...

I really feel baked honestly...and on top of that i've got the cold from hell...smh.

My nose, throat, eyes, everything...is pretty much out of commission right now. So tack that on to a gay ass work day and there u have it...My mood suuuuuuuuuuuuuuucked b4 i got home...

So now I'm happily typing under my blanket...

"sigh...just when u think life SUCKS something pops up to remind you its really not so bad...

(Sheesh I feel so very Sex & the City right now...lol)

Ok Carrie Bradshaw moment over....

Over and out kids!
Peace...

Dont know if this is real...

But...I found it...traveling the web (again)...And its eerily interesting...kinda sad, but something about it...I dunno...

Its a mummy...of a little girl that died at age 5. Her mother had her mummified to preserve her. This mummy is apparently over 80 years old and still in display in an Italian temple...

I posted it...well basically because something about it made me want to....




like I said...its kinda sad...But...I couldn't stop looking at it for some reason... (Not sorry if you find it kinda creepy.. its MY blog...)

Peace.

Angels...

So I'm at work today...and the oddest...almost creepy looking old man comes up to me. I was sitting at the front desk computer. So he kind a peers over the counter at me, and he's got both hands behind his back. I'm automatically weirded out...but I wasn't at work alone so I played it cool.

I said Hi, how are you? and he replied, I'm fine how are you? So I said I"m OK...And he starts smiling...
So of course in my head I'm like wtf...?

So he goes..."I see Christ in your eyes"
So I was like...wow...well thank you.
So he goes..."I'm a minister..."

So then I relaxed a lil...lol

So He was like..."He's in your eyes...Its shining...and its beautiful..."

I really didn't even know how to respond...But I smiled and told him thank you very much...

So he looked back at me one more time smiling and walked away....

Weird...But...real...deep. Cuz at that moment, before he walked up...I was PISSED...(work crap)...
His timing was on point...

But I was reminded of the bible verse saying something about entertaining angels...so i had to come home and look it up...


Hebrews 13:2

"Do not neglect to show hospitality to strangers, for by this some have entertained angels without knowing it."

Angel maybe? Or just a nice old man...I dunno...but he made my night....

Peace.

Continued...

From my Beauty Vs. Sexy Blog... I actually had a convo with JSW (<3)> about the whole issue and I'm gonna post our convo...Well the parts pertaining to the topic, lol. I found his response kinda interesting, so here goes...(Names have been changed to protect the innocent...lol)



ME: And if u get around to it, I'm curious (and yes there's a reason behind it) what women can u think of that you find beautiful? Not cute, not sexy, not just pretty....but beautiful ------------------------ 1:12 pm ------------------------

HIM: That's a hard question to answer ------------------------ 1:15 pm ------------------------

ME: I know

ME: Thts why im askin ------------------------ 1:20 pm ------------------------

ME: Im curious about what u find beautiful

HIM: You ever seen the movie the home of the brave?

ME: No ------------------------ 1:22 pm ------------------------

ME: I can look it up though, what about it ------------------------ 1:27 pm ------------------------

HIM: Samuel l jacksons wife in the movie

HIM: Is a beautiful woman

HIM: She is older but you will get the idea

ME: Ok

ME: Lemmie look ------------------------ 1:31 pm ------------------------

ME: Victoria Rowell

ME: Ok

ME: Can u think of any others?

ME: And what do u think is the diff between beautiful and just pretty?

HIM: What do u think of her

ME: She's pretty

HIM: Pretty can be done at a moments notice

HIM: Beauty lasts throughout the ages ------------------------ 1:39 pm ------------------------

HIM: Lisa raye ------------------------ 1:41 pm ------------------------

HIM: Alicia keys ------------------------ 1:44 pm ------------------------

ME: Gotcha

HIM: That makes sense ------------------------ 1:46 pm ------------------------

ME: ok now the difference between beautiful and sexy... ------------------------ 2:05 pm ------------------------

HIM: Huh?

ME: What do u think the difference is...I mean u can be sexy but not beautiful ------------------------ 2:24 pm ------------------------

HIM: Sexy is more of looks and the way u dress and how u interact

HIM: Jada pinkett was sexy

ME: Was?

ME: Lol

HIM: Yeah was

ME: She's not anymore?

HIM: She don't have that sex appeal anymore

ME: Hmmmm

ME: Ok

ME: So who do u think is sexy?

HIM: Keri hilson

HIM: Hands down like six thirty

ME: Really?

HIM: Yeah

ME: Ok

HIM: She is cute not pretty

HIM: But she is sexy

ME: Gotcha

HIM: Lisa raye is beautiful and sexy

ME: True ------------------------ 2:33 pm ------------------------

HIM: Tamia

HIM: Pam from total was sexy

ME: True

HIM: Mc lyte is pretty age seems not to affect her

HIM: Angela basset is on her own level

ME: True again ------------------------ 2:38 pm ------------------------

ME: So if u had to choose one you'd take sexy over beautiful?

HIM: Beautiful

HIM: Sex appeal can fade like I said beauty lasts over ages

ME: You did say that...ok

ME: Makes sense ------------------------ 2:47 pm ------------------------

HIM: Love u ------------------------ 2:49 pm ------------------------

ME: Love u too







Ok so that was the convo...Sexy can fade...Beauty will last...i liked that concept. So yeah...I heart him...



Deuces!

As a girl...

I ADORE making myself feel sexy...I LIVE for it...

I don't like to be cute JUST for my man...but i like walking past a mirror and being like..."shyt I'm sexy!"

Lol...(I'm truly not this conceited) I DO truly believe in women doing things just for THEM though...

If painting ur toes naked will make u feel sexy...do it!
If vacuuming in booty shots will make u feel sexy...do it!
If taking a bubble bath and letting yourself air dry across the bed will make u feel sexy...do it!!

Today I'm investing in a different pair of "heels" to add to my ever expanding closet...




I feel like every woman should own a pair...Wear em while you do the dishes, or cook dinner, wear em while you type at the PC, or do laundry...

Trust me it'll do WONDERS for preserving your sexy... *wink*

Peace

Beautiful or Sexy...

OK so my off days have become my major blogging days until i get my laptop, so these are the day's you'll see multiple posts from me only because I have so many thoughts running through my head I have to type what I can as i remember it.

But this topic really just came to mind as I was watching TV. I'm always curious about the definitions of true "Beauty" vs. Sex Appeal" I talk with Pammy alot about "Fine" vs. "Sexy" as far as men are concerned all the time...and I'm aware that you don't have to be fine as hell to be sexy as all get out. Sexiness is something you exude in my opinion. But I'm always looking for the input of others...

So onto the topic...It started with a Cassie video I was watching...("Official Girl") Now to me she's you're stereotypical "Video Girl" but to me she's not specifically "pretty". Then you have someone like Beyonce who..I'm not the HUGEST fan of (don't get me wrong she's talented as hell) but she's cool...She BEAUTIFUL though...

So what falls into the category of sexy, and what categorizes beauty...can u be both beautiful and sexy? (I say yes)

I'm going to post some images with this blog...

First women I find beautiful...Then women I think exude sexiness...

And lastly that rare breed that has BOTH!...

Enjoy...But I"m really curious...Whats the preference...beauty or sex appeal?

Now onto Sexiness....













Now the rare hybrid that seems to have BOTH of these on lock...













I could probably come up with a couple more examples...but I'm tired of searching images...lol

So enjoy the eye candy...and If i missed any let me know (I'm sure i did) And if u have your own opinions on this topic...feel free to share em...I may even do one of these on some sexy ass men later on...

Deuces!!

Ho-Ho-Hum..

Is it just me or are holidays getting more and more blah? Maybe its because of the recession we're in right now, but I've never been HUGE on the whole "Holiday's" thing...



This year specifically people just don't see "happy"...I see more stressed looks on faces this year...not as many shopping bags walking through the malls...Its just and overall "quietness" (is that a word??)



I mean Thanksgiving for me was never major...I don't have a HUGE immediate family...my extended family could go on forever but that's a whole 'nother blog. Plus...I don't even like turkey, and the pretense of "let's all gather together and play family for 1 day" seems so phony and forced to me"



Now as far as Christmas..I LOVE receiving gifts...and I can truly say I love shopping for other people even more...(Granted I also know that this isn't what Christmas is actually ABOUT...but I'm not gonna get all deep and philosophical right now)



I tend to like Christmas a little more than Thanksgiving, and New Years can be cool depending on how I'm spending it...but in general...it just seems like a lot of "keeping up appearances". And doing that this year with the economy being what it is just has people walking around so stressed...it's all over their faces....



But thanksgiving is this week and I truly do have ALOT to be thankful for....I could list it for you but I just don't feel the need. I"m happy overall and that's enough.



So with that said...(and I hope I didn't sound like a big ole Grinch)



Enjoy the holiday's everyone...



Toodles...

Beautiful...

Sometimes when I'm floating around the web..I find images that just strike me...

I'm posting this just cuz I found it beautiful....

Peace..

Ok ok...

So I must be mad hormonal..or just in some kinda "zone" today...But I'm continuing from my previous blog...

But rather than type...I think I'm gonna just post...pictures are worth a thousand words...
























Peace...

Hopeless Romantic...

Ok so I've come to the realization that I'm a total hopeless romantic...

I was thinking about Sex & The City (my fav movie to date) and really about the show in general because I"ve been a fan since day 1. That show's made me shop, cry, and realate on so many levels for so many reasons...



What woman CAN"T relate to a "Mr Big" we've all had one...(or still do). But sitting around in my sweats reading fashion mag's and just THINKING on my day off has made me realize how much I love LOVE. I'm not soft or naive by any means...I'm just ...



I mean I live for rainy day's in bed, convo's that last all night, holding hands, walking on the beach at night, kissing in the rain, love letters, poetry, slowdancing,..."sigh...



So on my list of top 3 movies to watch on a cold, rainy day in bed alone or with "him" are

And my ABSOLUTE Favorite to date...





We're all want "him" (figuratively of course...nothing against Christ Noth, he's just not my type) Mr. Big..."sigh...

Anyone that watched the TV series remembers EXACTLY what part this was...I cried so hard....




But yeah...I love LOVE, the good, the bad, and the ugly...It makes me feel like I"m LIVING...

"Some people are settling down, some are settling...and some refuse to settle for anything less than butterflies" ~ Carrie Bradshaw (Sex & The City the Movie)

Besos...

DANCE BISCUITS!!!

FUNNIEST THING I'VE SEEN IN AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGES!!!!

"we are the dancers"!!!

BUUUUUUAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

Christmas wish list...lol

Ok so I"m just gonna show ya'll some of the stuff I need to have this year. Some of which is actually do-able...and some...lol...well wishful thinking..lol
















thats it for now...I could go all day..FLYNESS...utter FLYNESS I tell you!!!

Over and Out!!